Love

is all bout love.....boring....
love....does not exist in my world......
but i don like someone betray their lover.....
i don like someone fall in love with someone but his/her heart still got somebody....
this is somekind of like bullshit love.....
is you want to keep like this you better don......
more better you just let it go and go the way you wanna go.....
if you keep like this......
don think this will last longer....
NEVER AND NEVER!!!!
sometime when this kind of problem coming.....just ask your heart....
feel your heart....
go touch your heart....
ask back your heart wat is the asnwer tat appear in the first sense....
human will cover all the answer when their receive from their heart in the first sense....
use their own way.....and the most faster way to cover al of that.....
just like me......
i ask my friend tat shall i continue my way?
she said im a nice and kind boy tat will find a guy girl......
and treat your girl in a very gud way.....
i feel so happy......i will get myself a girl friends.....
but after i ask back my heart.....
is it really tat i will get a girl friend and start a happy life with them?
or just maybe i want show tat i have a girl friend?
or maybe i want to show tat im normal?
or............
i just want to be friend back with him so i go after a girl?
tats my answer from my heart.....
yes......this is the first answer in my heart....
i want to friend back with him.....so i want to try this.....
but.......i cant do this....
i din manage to do wat i was thinking......
start from that day that i tell him all the thing....
start from the day he scare about me.....
start from the day he avoid me....
i am in a down....sad......suicide mood....
i cant even forget wat i did to him.....
i cant even forgive myself tat i using a honest way to make more closer to him.....
this thing stuck in my heart already for one month.......
keep running around my heart.......
like a rolling blade.....
tat day he left.....i was looking for him....
but i fail.....but when i sightly looking back....
i saw him at the toilet entrance.....hiding there.....
i saw.....but i din go back......i know tat he will going in and don come out until i left....
after tat....the day he last......
i also never had a chance to said im sorry to him........
is it show tat....this is the end of the friendship between me and him?
the thing stuck in my heart is not love......
is just a simple word......
Friends.........
i hate myself for giving him a honest answer.....
i hate myself why i will feel a crush with him.....
i hate myself tat i din manage to said im sorry to him.....
i hate myself to giving him a nightmare in his whole life.......
i hate myself and don even want to forgive myself.......
i hate........