another day has come........

i have to use some music to let me have a feel to write blog.......
yiruma will the best selection.....coz.....
im not happy.....
today i talk to myself.....tat....
i don care anything at all.....
he want to listen or don want to listen is not my problem already.....
but when i saw him.....
he run like when mouse saw a cat......
but i keep telling myself i don care for tat.....
u want to listen wat im said or don want.....
i don care bout it.....
u have your right way tat don listen to me....
im very angry......
but.......when im thinking.....
when im start thinking tat how.....
how we become like this......
i feel so sad and like a guilty people......
is all because of me....now he escape from me...
because of me he don afraid of me.....
today i tell myself tat i will go and talk to him.....
but i din do tat......
i keep said tat he is nothing but just a coward......
he don like to face wat he are facing now....
he choose run away from it...
he...........
afraid......scare......of me......
when i ask myself why......
ask my heart why.......
the answer already very clear.....
but i try not to accept tat......
i don like to become like this......
friends is all my life......my precious thing in my life....
i don like my friends gone so suddenly......
i hate this.....
why he still cant understand.......
the way he did everytime he saw me.....
im feel like a guilty people.......
i tell myself tat i will find a girlfriends.....
for wat........
for love?
for fun?
or maybe.......
i just want someone know tat im a normal guy.......?
this is the answer tat come out from heart.....
i don like this answer but i.......
have to face it.....
keep like this....
the wound in the heart will keep deeper and deeper....
i try to said......
everytime i tell myself i try to said.....
today i tell myself i will said something with him......
but.......
i din do tat.......
i just realize......im the one who is nothing but just a........
coward........
i just try to said..........
can we be friend again...........?
Ken...........im sorry......................