Well

Well
is really getting lot and lot more people who can really who are we
im very happy to saw those video clip in youtube or those link out from my friend
is a new generation
is a new life
everything is so good to know
i am the one who admit myself as a gay here
yet i already does show in my Facebook once
so what?
i am who i am
and i dont bring any problem for you
we live like no different from other
we are proud to be like that
we love when we find our love

work stress

well....i guess everyone have that as well...
it just different cases....
for me.....i always cant really work with someone that i think they cant even work...
ya true.....and it cause my manager headache for this....
is not that i dont want to change....
i give an excuse on this......
becoz of my age.....alright....age....
if my ex-manager heard that he going to kill me again but so bad he is not my manager now...
i really miss him so much.....
he teach me a lot of thing that when i first come to singapore....
service....skill....anything that really can learn from him is great...
other people might dont think like that but for me he is.
now im struggling at work...
shall i really keep working on it.....ot i shall just change an environment....
when i hate someone....i need quite some time to get ripe of it...
is not easy for me.....i know this well....'
although i want to change but still....i quite stubborn.
sigh.....i was so hope i was someone else.....

Is.....

Is getting hard to keep on going
when there is really no one that can help you work out the problem that you have
what i want is just a little encourage by someone that really appreciate what i did
i do everything becoz i take it so serious
is part of my job
is part of my responsibility
why cant take it serious while u know what to do
im getting tired
im getting lazy
im getting
ANGRY
i was consider shall i really go point out the thing that u dont even know what to do?
shall i really go and said what u really weak on?
i dont think i got that strength to tell you anything anymore
i was so lazy
but
i give my thx to my fren which is one of my supplier
he give me advice to continue and see how it goes
he give me the reason why i have to wait and see the situation
and
i was so regret that
why i quit
Canele
i miss all my colleague and the time at there
i miss my regular there
i miss the shift there
i miss the paper work there
i miss the
................coffee art there.....................
i was so

BUSTED

Im back...

well....
is been quite some time i never update my blog....
actually i do have lots of things want to post on.....
but i was just too lazy....ive been quite some time never open my laptop to update my facebook also....
all the game inside never get update also....
since when.........
after i go taiwan....
haha.....
well.....
really feel so tired for the new job now...
miscommunication with my colleague and staff....
jobs sucks for moment being....
yet....i really dont like people who dont appreciate those thing that we did for them....
very tired.....

Bastard!!

I was so damn bastard...

i fall in love with someone that i cant fall in love with...

was really suffering when i saw him...

i just don know why...

just start from last two year,everytime i saw him i will stick to him so close.

i cant said like a brother,coz we really are some bother ( relationship )

for me he was damn nice to communicate...a nice person to date with...

but so bad he got girls friends.

Was really controlling myself everytime when i meet him.

few day ago he come to my home and look for my us to have a drink...

really enjoy the moment when i go out and buy something with him....

and when we attend the same wedding dinner...just sit infront of me...

i know!! is weird....but no worry...i controlling myself...

sigh.....bless....i always like a person that i cant fall in love with....if not it going to have a big problem....like world destruction?haha.....sigh.....

A marriage...

Few days ago...i attend my cousin wedding.

It was so fun...when i saw lots of brother is celebrating with them.

What was inside my mind in that moment...

I dont even know i can have a marriage like this or not...

Is complicated...

I hope when the day that i have my own marriage...

I will invite lots of my brother and friends come my wedding dinner...

Singapore....my hometown....my friends that i know...

It is really fun...you can play with them in the wedding dinner...

Sing song,drink drunk drank~take picture,cry together...

Giving Blessing by them...Cry infront of them....

Finally become a real guy that have a family....

I just dont know why i like it lots...but so bad...i know it will never ever happen in my life...

Was really complicated....

Choosing a way that never return is pain...but was a fate...

wondering...

Actually was wondering....when can i really have a proper boyfriend.

This is a question that i keep asking myself.

If i get it so sudden will i really go and keep it for long?

My friends has been telling me that keep on dating but dont have more closer relation if it was just started.

But the problem is i dont really dare to go and date someone that i want...

What i scare for? Got no idea on that.

My friend scold me that i always think too much....

It haven start but your mind already start to think lots of junk.

Those couple that i date before or their date me before....It cant even last long for few month...

Maybe i just haven get ready on it?

Been trying to go club and looking for it but...so bad i dont dare to try...

Coz i know it is just for fun...those people inside the club wasnt treat you in true heart.

When their saw your face...only thing that pop out inside their mind is...This guy is "FUCKABLE"

Thats true.all people inside the club wasnt treat you in true...their just need some one to fuck.

But if lucky enough...you really can get one...

I like sun tanning....know why?

First i like the color...second i like myself to get more attract...coz i saw lots of boy with nice tan color.Third...i like tan guys as well...dont you feel a bit more tan will be more great?

somehow...i already done tanning for twice...but i dont think is enough for me...still a long way to go...

Was really wondering...what those boy like...and what am i inside their eyes.....