is a bad mood week.......sigh*......

somehow.....i try my best to give it all i have.....
but he don want to forgive me and give me a chance to become his friend again......wat can i do?
haizzz.......i really don like to lost any friend in my life......
i don want he keep misunderstanding.....
i just want to be friend back.....
i got ask my friend....both of them....
is girl....my best friend also.....
their said just let the time pass.....only time can cure...
he don want to pick up my phone call.....
he don want see my message...
he........he afraid of me......
wat can i do if next time i saw him?
wat action shall i take when someday we meet at outside?
wat.......wat time just i can tell him tat.....
im sry............
he din give me any time to explain wat i want to tell him....
i just want to said.....
i don want it to become to be like this.....
i just want to become a friend in your life.....
it come from the bottom of my heart.....
im sorry.....can we be friend again?

for Ken......hope you see this before you resign.......

since last time i send you a message tat inside has this word....
"i want to give it a try....."
"i want to give it a shoot......"
"if (acceptable) fine....."
"we continue as wat we are as friend...."
"but if fail...."
"we will become enemy......"
after all....i din manage to said wat i want to said.....
im not a men but just a coward tat only know protect myself.....
im not a men but just a person tat if i think i want it tat way....
then the thing must be on my hand....
im so selfish.....
i want you always ask something about me.........
i want you always talk to me and sms me no matter wat situation it is.....
but i.......
i........
i din manage to tell wat i want to tell you....
i din manage to said i want to see you everyday...
i din manage to get you.........by myself.....
i............
i don want to destroy your life.....
you....
is a gud guy.....
you....
got alot of future waiting for you.....
but when i think bout you......
my mind just cant stop reload the picture of you......
my friend said this is just a crush tat will end up just a while ......
but why this thing keep in my mind for a long time......
i din manage to..........forget......
i don want to lost you....
i hope you understand......
i hope we still can be friend......
at this moment i wish i could cry....but i...
din do tat.........
sry ken.......
sry ken.............

feel so empty.......but.....

these day.......feel so empty.......maybe is still alone in here........
if din go work........when the night come........more empty..........coz..........
everytime think bout my friends......thinking bout......
when can play with them......
when can enjoy something with them.....
when can share with them......
but......is hard.......coz.......
i want to start.........
i want to learn.......
start and learn bout how to go alone.......
start and learn when got no body by my side........
coz.....like their said......
the pain.....let it shallow more better than let it more deep.......
after 4~6 year.......i can meet them again.........
i said tat to myself.....everytime think bout them........
i will fulfill my dream......
then i can share with them......enjoy with them.....play with them......
so....i will make it till the most great...........
in here i will promise............
i will become the best........
i wont disappoint them.......
yours encourages......i get it
yours supports.......i get it
thx you.......

Thx to ÇøR member 2

1 more song...their develop themself.title is Arabmani......after listen and watch....got a bit funny....a bit only....then bout 4 Oliver said headache...ned some fresh air.then we just sit at the kitchen and let the time pass.444,i start my car and fetch AYK and daniel to put the guitar home first then fetch them go Alibaba,then go back prepare coz want go back d.although time is not enough,but im so satisfied already.Thx again to ÇøR!!!U ROCK!!!!!

Thx to ÇøR member

(sry 1 coz using psp blog so got limit)
today go my other friends there name Oliver.when reach there i saw two more person there 1 is AYK and other 1 i don know but we already be friend i think his name is daniel.first we go out have a brunch and then go salon,then still got many time then go 711 buy something.then go Oliver there coz their got class(teach).im just sit down and listen.the guitar.....the tune....how nice,after teach we just play wat we can play.Oliver play a song "unfaithfull" nice....

Going back.

at saturday.....well actually now im at JB so i cant play with my friend anymore.But still got go back to Seremban.last saturday i go back for two day,actually is 1 day coz at night only reach home.so after dinner then i take my father motor and go my friend there...it becoz the time is not enough,so just go a while.then go other friends house....play till 2am then go home and play ps2 till 3am then sleep,coz 2morow ned go other friends house at taman baiduri.

im back..............................

after 2 and half month++....im back.........
actually........this two month also is the same......
but something different...tats i din work d..........
for 2 month.......
2 MONTH...........
become really lazy d...........
not eat then sleep.....
not sleep then eat.....
sien...........
now........when i saw jeffry khoo blog.......
now i knew tat...........
my blog is tat ugly.............
i ned to update...............but don know how................
i will try my best......
+U bah....