I was very happy when i receive some comment from my friends...although is just 3...but it make me so happy...one of my dear said no matter how it is i will still be your best friends Love ya!!one said very good!be the one who u are and not fear about anything! the last one i forget what she said already...
It was few week ago...since i post the last post....i was getting well and well...
Just last week i when to the meet up for volleyball i saw him...before i saw him i was inside the changing room...while im changing my Iphone was accidentally drop on floor and crack!
But when i look at it i didnt feel any sadness...what im thinking that time is...o...crack already...go and change the screen should be fine...
but when i finish changing...i walk inside the court i saw him...I dont know why my mood suddenly get bad...and when i look at him i feel like i wanna cry...
I never talk to him that day...although got chance i also don want talk to him...
I try to avoid him...i dont know why...i scare when i talk to him again i will cry again....
It was so scary....i try to avoid to play court with him...digging with him...just everything...i try not to do and said anything to him.
But he still that sweet and nice for me...his smile...his eyes....everything is so nice...but is no longer for me...
After the game...im on my way home...suddenly i receive a message from him...he said am i ok?im look so angry.I look at the message and thinking...why dont u ask when im still at the court...
You dont even treat me as a friends do u?u dont even want to open ur mouth to talk to me....after few message...it ends up like the same as before...he never reply my message...this is the part i hate the most....why dont u just try to said something to end up the conversation?
After that i told one of my friend that know everything about me and him,...he was telling me that...he already move on so do u....try looking for another relationship...or maybe just stop think about those thing.he already said he don want to accept another relationship yet so just deal with that.
Yes...since that day i told my friends how im feel...i was more better than 3 weeks ago...
Yet...im already start a new relationship....i think im kindda happy with him now...although it just few day only...but im fine with it.
I try not to think to much to let myself worry.i know i can do better than before....as long as he think im ok to have a relationship....hehe
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