Am i Useless......

just a day has been pass away....

ive been on leave for 8 days.....

i go back my home town to celebrate my birthday......

but why...other people birthday...their friends will find for them.....but....

why don have any friends is doing this to me?

for this whole week....

i find my friends for celebrate my birthday....

and have very boring and tired week....

im happy coz i still can find some friends to go out....

but just some....not all...

i know....their all go work or study....

maybe it just not the right time to go out....

i thought i can enjoy my week when i going back to my home town.....

but....something is missing and something is wrong.......

i don know wat is that....

but i can feel it......something not right......

for the first three day is fun.....coz i can meet my JB friends.....

but....the day pass so fast.....the day i come back to singapore.....

i feel like....so empty.....i cant even know wat im doing for the week.....

wat in my brain now it just a empty and white.....

and.....im thinking wat should i do after i resign.....

wat im doing now is the road that already fix by my uncle....

i cant come in singapore to work without my uncle help......

yet.....their all take care of me so much i think it becoz of my uncle.....

if not....im just a stranger for them......

i plan to study a part time designer.....

but i still have to work to gain some money......

i cant even leave singapore now....

wat i plan for next year.....

i thought i can rest for one or two month.....but....

wat about my rent?wat about my broadband.....

who going to pay for me.......

i cant even think about the future........

wat im doing it just only know how to said......

din take any action at all....

wat can i do?

i hope i can find someone to solve my problem.....

i hope someone can give me some opinion and suggestion.....

to let me build a road that i can walk.....

but...the execute is im still young.....wat can i do?

am i useless?am i not gud enough for them?

am i......still cant step on the world?

having a first step?