Selfish........

i think..........im really selfish.............maybe not......maybe it is?...........don know................today.......i saw my gor............working partner lar..........just call him gor...........talk with the fatty and the fatty keep touch him here and there..............so angry........don know why..........and other is call his name...........like calling her boyboy...........me also angry tat............thinking............so ugly lar..........just shut up can?............................sometime me also think tat i want monopolize someone.......but.........when thinking tat...........he also got his friend.........i cant do tat............then just said to myself............just let it go.............don care the thing..........aiks...............

and im think im really like a child d...........today morning my friend said my thing infront of me..........then don know why angry............then will afternoon after sleep then just like nth.................someone......giv me your suggestion to heal me...........pls..............i hate tat my friend leave me alone...........but......sometime i quite and stand alone at there.........no one can talk with me.........coz i will fed up easily...........

today.......the weather very gud..........then till everning.......i saw the sun..........like..........very last time...........tat my friend and me go pd.................take many photo............just like the everning sun..........the memory keep blow in my mind............but.........many thing change.............

to my friend............my classmate.....
someone........tat i want try to love her............but.......i din..............
Lee Ting...........
i got try........but.........im too coward..........i hate change............i want try........but i already know the answer...............
im not dare to said..........and after tat..........i din talk to you........coz i think u fed up with me............
i cant said my last gud bye to you........
i cant said my last congratz to you..........
i cant said my last thx to you..........
i cant said my last hi to you..........
i cant said my last love to you............
i cant said..............
many word i want to tell you.........
many life story i want to share back with you.........
many thing i want to said with you.......
but you change.........
maybe.......im just the one who don want change..............
hope u know..............
Mun Khek..........
i din means tat.........
i know you anti-ing me..........
but.......
is reallt hard.....to get back..........
also till tat day...........i think im telling the true is gud..........
it make me more better.............
also............can make you more better..............
can friend back with you..........i think is gud...........
can friend back with you..........i think is nice..........
can friend back with you..........i think is the more precious thing for me.............
can friend back with you..........i think........think...........
all the thing is just thinking................i know.......
someday u will understand..........someday...........

this two.......friend....is......really.......i want to know back and.......friend back...........

something......

human........got many type............but.........im so confuse tat i don know which type i am..........some ppl said me so child........some ppl said me so gay..........some ppl said me nice.........some ppl said me............don know.........hard to describe.............so i said im really confuse..........sometimes........i feel like im so.........don know wat will i do in the next second........and it happen many time on me..........when i decide to choose this............but the endding is not tat gud as i think...............

sometime.........when i decide tat i want to leave..........but........many thing happen.......till now i don know where i want go..............maybe is a got decision..........but.......maybe not............and i think im so stupid now........really stupid...........sometimes.........

i don know wat im doing now.........but i only know tat.......inside my decision.........got some error.............is not 100% gud.........is not 100% bad..............

im really want stay.........but............the decision i make already cant turn it back.......i know........it can..........but im not tat brave.........im so coward...........im so............im just escape-ing the problem......tats me...........im so stupid.............why.......................

today......when i saw at them........is really happy.........when gather together............is really happy..........but..........im scare..........scare for....................i will lose them..............i really hate..........i hate tat im losing something so suddenly............especially............friendS?

many ppl said.......the party........will end soon..........but i don want believe it is true........but..........if just let the party.........continue.......many ppl will tired.............will fed up.........will angry...........after all.........all will go their own way...............i hate tat..............i know...........just a phone can contact..........but...........we cant search back the moment back..........we cant find back the moment...............why?

finally...........thx..........for saw my blog.................i know is few.........but...........i also want thx you.........

start again.........

since last blog at tat day....i want start back.but wont blog everyda.......i will blog some usefull thing in here..........

Off day.......

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yesterday.......when playing maple........on bout 12.......may sms me and said can talk......then she call me.......and ask me still want to do not........said she want to make the time table d.............don want delay anymore..........and she said she wont tell anyone................then........i said i really don know.......coz..........i really no mood on there already............very boring......bout than and sin yeen and other.............then i said to may tat don put my time at the time table........coz i don want work d..............then she just end call after 5 minute..........then i go online back.........

then today wake up at 7.03am.........but after tat i sleep back.........and after alarm ring....i just stop it and sleep back..........then when 9.10.....suddenly shock up.......then saw the hp.....walao.......late d........then fast clean up and have a bath..........then today my sis Bf fetch us............we go out from house is 9.20.......then reach igentis already 9.45.....very late today.......................then prepare everything............then just work..........then suddenly got a message come in..........than giv me der......said...........i din force you to continue work at Igentis..............if you don want just don want lar..........and this message really don have threaten you to continue work...........then i just think while then know who said to than........tat only one person.....may................then i got reply the message to him...........but he din reply me any.......i think he mad d...........but will he think tat really true?...........wat im said...........is tat unreal?..................don know.........then go break............go my sis there a while............then no way can go.........so go back igentis.................really don have anything to do............

then today night also very boring...........but suddenly got one girl my friend come in and eat...........i already said don want but she said her mom want come in and eat.........so no choice.......this girl............i got giv her many present..........other just think yourself lar............then after work finish then go back home and online..........but before tat..........i go my friend there giv the present to him..........coz he birthday..............this friend nice............don know why i think i wont argue with him or angry him............he really got tat feel.............then after giv i just go back home and online..........today can play very late coz my sis go JB d...........so first i play maple story then i blog this.................now feel sleepy d...........gud night..........

before tat i must write here..........
Happy Birthday to my friend.........Sheng Hong.......
Happy Birthday to my friend..........Li Ting..........
hope you two.......smile always..............
and..........im really happy tat i know you two................
last........
Happy Birthday~~~~!!!!!!!!!!

Finally......wake up..........

yesterday.........finally.......i can drink tat vodka........nice..orange taste........not very bitter tat i think.....coz...........already + 7up and some salt.............then i try a bit pure vodka.....walao.........cant take it...........whole mouth like giv the fire burn...........then we drink till 1 something.........then i go bath and i sleep at 2.......walao......tomorow still ned work........but this time not tat dizzy than last time.......tat time more dizzy.........aiksss....

then today wake up at 8.50........but.......sleep back.........then wake up at 9.10 coz my sis wake me up said want take my big sis Bf home........then wake up and clean up then bath..........then go Igentis..........reach there...prepare all the thing.........today sunday...........hate.........coz if i don have enough time to prepare all the thing and the customer come in i will angry easily.........then fed up all the day.........hate it.........so today is the day..............beside...........today damn not enough ppl work.........work like hell...........din go break also......then i see Ichiban Ramen.........how free are their...........still got place tat is empty.........i want work there lar.........coz got something i want at there...........haha.......cant write here..........then really work like hell.........when reach 5~5.30....the fatty said must wear a name tape............said last warning woh.............if not saman Rm50...then i just act like i din heard...........then when eating.........i sms may......then she call back.......and i said.............why must wear tat.........then she said must.......before tat also got wear..........coz...easy to complain...swt.............then i just listen lar......i will wear tomorow coz i only listen to may..........then i said..........if i let her choose..........want me or fatty..........but she said me kiddo........then i said........if giv me.......i will quit this game and let fatty in..........coz she can take care my friend Onn Chee.......coz she P..........so ned care more than before................but may said is not her to decide......is jessica...........aiks..........

then finish chat just go work............then i think bout something tat than said to me..........he said if i go ichiban work..........im sure tired till die......then i think........if here not enough ppl............also die ar..........more hard and more work than ichiban ramen............beside i really got side effect on them already..........so i just go back ichiban said...........those word tat i said before i want to take it back........coz i want go there work.............then today work till 6 only.............then i saw my sis and her BF and my mom.........come jusco buy thing.....coz she want go Jb today........and don know when come back..............then i go my sis there and she fetch me.......coz she also work till 6.30 only.........then when reach home just get bath and play maple story........wao...........double EXP.......for few hour only.....damn....but happy also lar..........can up 2lv........nice~~~then play till 11.45++..........and blog this.......

feel so........lonely?

today wake up at.......8 something..........beside.........yesterday i really mad coz my mom come jusco she din tell me tat she got come and i go back at 6............damn....waste my Rm12 to take taxi back..............aiks..........no money d lar............poor..........then wake up i just call my mom....then want choi me or not is up to her........don know lar............then on the way to Igentis already nth..........so when reach there just work............prepare...........aiks............sien..........

then when break i go take my gift tat i want giv to lee ting.........birthday at monday......so ned buy fast...........but......not one only.........got other friend birthday also......so i buy two T-shirt to him........coz really don know want buy wat.....want buy shoes der.......but don want lar.........."HAI HAI SENG" bad.........then buy two blue tom shirt.............nice also........coz he like blue toms very much................then go yum cha with xin yeen..........at hongkie......i order one kopi and one freach toast.........nice~~~then talk loh..........talk many thing........when talking why i want go ichiban work..........nono.....not ask this.........ask wat ar........wait............arr.....remember.......coz she and other ppl keep said me this and tat...........only know how to make me mad.........but i din angry with them...........then i said...........you all talk me i just act like nth lar.........then if i said you all.....you all just get mad easyly.........and said don want talk with me and hate me.........then she got nth to said coz i said the right thing............then go back igentis work..........whole night din talk...........no mood talk beside today throat very dry and make me cough all day.....haiz................really no mood............then when working my friend foo ming come find me........said my other friend want come back seremban...........chai ping...........ask when i free........but really lar...........i cant take my time out..........hard...........

then chat bout 2~3 minute i said don chat d coz later the fatty scold back at me..........then keep work loh...........then when close finish i giv the present to one person name alien.........and tell her tat giv the present to lee ting today............then today is my sis bf fetch me..........and my sis friend also...........then on the way home said want buy 100plus and one bag of ice............then said my home got BBQ...........swt............then reach home just saw my uncle and other ppl..........then i din choi them just go online and blog this..........when i come in..i said one vodka............want drink leh..........maybe it nice?....don know......havent try before........want try leh~~~~