Heart

Everytime...i try to forget him...but is kinda hard...is not that i dont want to forget...it was just hard to forget... Everytime i finish my thing,on my work,after my game...i hope my phone will have a message that is from him...how was the game...did u take your lunch...have you sleep well...sleep early tomorrow u work morning... But those thing will never come true again...and there got no chance to happen again...after the night...everything change...he seal all his emotion...he dont want to open the door again...he was afraid... I cant find anymore happyness on him...the smile on his face is the most sweet things i want to look for it...but is gone...the feeling of relax and comfortable after he bath...is still make me so comfortable...but is gone...the ear and the hair that i playing while i lay on him...is so soft...but is all gone from now... I try to tell myself to go and accept the truth...yes...i did...but cant last longer...today i might forget...but tomorrow i will remember again... ive been talking to him...he said he is fine..he worry about me...but what he said...he make me more worry about him...i was the one...that make him feel so sad,down and depress again...i know that...although he said he already said what is inside his mind...but i didnt feel any of it...he still inside his closet...lock it up...he said he just tired... maybe im too lousy,irritated...im want to look for him often...but i cant do anything already...a lot of people tell me that time will recover everything...but it will take a long time... ive been telling him that...if u want to know each other more...u have to tell me was is inside you mind...i do give it a try to change...i am who i am...i change bcoz of u but i am who i am still...why i said i change...because i want you to know...you are the one who i love with now...i do changers because of you...no one else can have the chance but is only you... im telling myself...you are still on my list...the number one that on my list...i wont change anything until i know that it was really no chance to have u anymore...then i give up... the way that u wake back home after u send me...is was far from ur home...i cant believe that everytime u look for me u need to walk a far distance with a leg that injure....i really dont know until i go and try now... i really hope that u are still in love with me...but this is what hope now...ive been somewhere to play...but...my heart juat cant accept anymore people except you...it was still hard for me...to forget you... Friends...is what we can use now...are you feeling sad now?are you cold now?are you hungry now?are you okay now?i hope i really can be there for you now...but i cant even do that now... you been said before...if you dont like a person...u will need sometime to talk to him again...it might take a week,a month,or maybe a year... what i really hope now is you are getting well...cheer up again...smile again.........talk to me again....i really cant forget the moment that u do a poker face to me...it was so funny...u are really stupid....the most stupid guy....i ever fall in love before... i will be waiting...the day u message me again...although is simple...but thats enough for me...is more than enough than anyone else.... i was in the place that we use to meet the first time...you will telling me why not finish the food...why....because...i was too nervous while im beside you...thats why i cant even finish a single thing that i use to eat everyday....i didnt tell you that on the first day...because i already does fall in love...with you...is not a crush...it was true.... okay...ill be fine after this...im having a break now...