Heart

Everytime...i try to forget him...but is kinda hard...is not that i dont want to forget...it was just hard to forget... Everytime i finish my thing,on my work,after my game...i hope my phone will have a message that is from him...how was the game...did u take your lunch...have you sleep well...sleep early tomorrow u work morning... But those thing will never come true again...and there got no chance to happen again...after the night...everything change...he seal all his emotion...he dont want to open the door again...he was afraid... I cant find anymore happyness on him...the smile on his face is the most sweet things i want to look for it...but is gone...the feeling of relax and comfortable after he bath...is still make me so comfortable...but is gone...the ear and the hair that i playing while i lay on him...is so soft...but is all gone from now... I try to tell myself to go and accept the truth...yes...i did...but cant last longer...today i might forget...but tomorrow i will remember again... ive been talking to him...he said he is fine..he worry about me...but what he said...he make me more worry about him...i was the one...that make him feel so sad,down and depress again...i know that...although he said he already said what is inside his mind...but i didnt feel any of it...he still inside his closet...lock it up...he said he just tired... maybe im too lousy,irritated...im want to look for him often...but i cant do anything already...a lot of people tell me that time will recover everything...but it will take a long time... ive been telling him that...if u want to know each other more...u have to tell me was is inside you mind...i do give it a try to change...i am who i am...i change bcoz of u but i am who i am still...why i said i change...because i want you to know...you are the one who i love with now...i do changers because of you...no one else can have the chance but is only you... im telling myself...you are still on my list...the number one that on my list...i wont change anything until i know that it was really no chance to have u anymore...then i give up... the way that u wake back home after u send me...is was far from ur home...i cant believe that everytime u look for me u need to walk a far distance with a leg that injure....i really dont know until i go and try now... i really hope that u are still in love with me...but this is what hope now...ive been somewhere to play...but...my heart juat cant accept anymore people except you...it was still hard for me...to forget you... Friends...is what we can use now...are you feeling sad now?are you cold now?are you hungry now?are you okay now?i hope i really can be there for you now...but i cant even do that now... you been said before...if you dont like a person...u will need sometime to talk to him again...it might take a week,a month,or maybe a year... what i really hope now is you are getting well...cheer up again...smile again.........talk to me again....i really cant forget the moment that u do a poker face to me...it was so funny...u are really stupid....the most stupid guy....i ever fall in love before... i will be waiting...the day u message me again...although is simple...but thats enough for me...is more than enough than anyone else.... i was in the place that we use to meet the first time...you will telling me why not finish the food...why....because...i was too nervous while im beside you...thats why i cant even finish a single thing that i use to eat everyday....i didnt tell you that on the first day...because i already does fall in love...with you...is not a crush...it was true.... okay...ill be fine after this...im having a break now...

Work

ok....it seems like is only someone will know what im talking in this post...so...try to get it ok.

I resign becoz of something that happen will that thing is already cannot be save...

And i joining back now to that place....

Is really a good place to work and it becoz i going C to work i know a lot people...

I know how the bread and pastry work,the chocolate,the cake,the drink.

The most important still is Friends!

is really happy while im start working at there since april...

it has been 6 month ago....

everything change so fast and goes so fast.....

after i know them...their are like gone one by one...

it becoz of the working shift,but not the friends over there....

im still ok coz we still can have a meet once a while but...

since He come....everything get change more than before....

He try to bring his own concept and working style to C....

But somehow i don really think is a good idea to do that but no one can really stop or give advice to him it becoz He is the OM....

No choice but just have to accept what was really happen now....

no matter what thing he do,what thing he said,anything he try to explain...

for other people their might think good or bad...

but for me is TOTALLY SUCKS YARK AND BULLSHIT!

He just like an assassin that like to play back stab....

Somehow the GOD is quite like the way he work so we are like really got no idea what to said so just let it be....

Last few day...P has left C....it might be good for the staff.....coz the way he treat the staff is really bad....but becoz of him just for this C....

My Cater M ....has just transfer to some where else....he no more longer Event M....

im kindda upset about this....no more event for me and my partner.....the great partner for Catering.....

everything is changing.....i don even know how long im going to survive at here...

some of my friends said why i care so much u are nothing but just a staff...

but their really don know how im feel about it....

i don like it becoz just a people then the whole world is changing.....WITHOUT ANY REASON!

you can said im too much of gossip about those thing that really not that necessary to worry bout.

but i just cant stand here waiting.....it make me more hard to work....

Im waiting for an answer...can i really turn back the time......

U can take my body away....but you cant take my soul away....

no matter what i wont become a part of ur crew.....

thats no way i will follow u and work with u...

i get in touch with a lot of M but u are really the most suck in this....

THX YOU!