Lazy...

Is getting lazy to blog again...
think the lazy Isaac is getting back now...
sigh...

End

This is the end

the end of the day for the date

between

me

and

jorge

nothing to sad with

just move on

and learn a lesson

life

have to go on

just

believe in the next person

who i shall

fall in love with

30th Nov 2011

was a fuck up day...when i awake....is already 7 oclock...i said OMG!!!! im late for work!!!! my alarm....just really cannot wake me up....maybe i am really tired until i cant heard the alarm...anyway.;....i quickly wake up and brush...i just use a 10 minute to do everything and then left the home and call my work place and tell whoever is there and let them know that ill be late...and the person is terence....so....i take cab to work place...i was so busted...waste money also....use a least a 10 dollar for it....sigh....seriously not my day..

then after i reach my work place...i quickly do the set up...and arrange table...coz by 730 need to open the store...so today i work bar until 11...but before that i was so damn emo...i try to control myself not to cry...and stop emo..lucky the work keep me calm down if not im sure cry or emo already....terence sense that when i said can call someone to take over me now....then i tell him that i have a lot of issue in my mind now...they all suddenly blow up....

so...i when to toilet and cool down a while...then get some food to eat at the office area....then suddenly terence come in and talk to me....thats the reason why i follow him...be part of his colleague...coz he understanding....he know everyone does have lots of issue...but try not bring them to work...especially when u have some problem at work...coz this will affect the family/money/love ...then when u affect them...it will bring back to work....so...try to control...or try to talk to them if im willing to share....then im good....coz i finally wake up from there...

then after that i message jorge...and i tell him those feeling that i felt now...and....thats all for me and him....today will be the end of the date.....one and half month....not bad...consider good....finally...i make myself clear....and he just said that dont waste my time on him...he not a good guy to be with...i have totally no idea...but never mind...its all over....im single again....after that...i just head back to work...and im doing well....coz the emo is pass...

so...i know i was late..feel bad...but i have to get through from that...coz terence said is not an issue....so..ya...so before my shift end...alvaro ask me to pack those bean..so i just pack it..is four big tub....and it seems it will take a lot of time...but...since outside is damn heavy rain also...so i cant make a move...and finish pack all the bean...then go home around 5...and i meet kennedy at TPY also....for dinner...

then i pass him my phone and let him see what jorge message me...then suddenly he type something and send it out...when he pass back to me and i just realize the message is damn serious...i thought we going to have and happy ending...but then i think kennedy make it worst...so..ya...but actually im quite happy that kennedy send him the message also....sigh...anyway...we go eat the YI Mian as usual then i go his place and relak a while then i just make a move...

finally...i think i can really go diet...suntanning....save up some money...and do those thing i want...no need to think so much...and this is really out of my expected...im not that sad that i thought....haha....great....i can go on and date someone out again....

29th Nov 2011

wake up around 9 plus...by ur alarm....hugging here and there....then around 945 have to really wake up from bed...coz u have to reach PS by 1030...report...so...when u out for bath...i check your phone...and i saw something that really disappoint me...i saw the flirt message that you talking with the guy...he ever send you his naked and XXX pic...so as you... after check that...i message kennedy...then i close the app and continue talking with you....pretend nothing happen...but my attitude does show...

so when we reach mrt...i was still pretending...until i reach my home....and continue message kennedy...and let him know what was happening....so after i tell him what is all about...i activate back my Grindr....and start to grindr again....is been a long time i never active...then after i reach home...i just go and have my breakfast...then turn on the laptop...doing nothing...play my psp....and grindr...and here goes the first one who message me in grindr...he said that he is a local...and when the time i meet him....seriously...he damn cute...but too bad that he is not...and he lie. he is very fresh in grindr...dont even know what to do...so end up...we dont even do much of what we talk about...then i go home d...

so after that...i message mei lian for meeting her...but then....is really out of budget.....so i cancel to meeting her...and im suppose to go volleyball also...but then kennedy said dont go...we go watch movie and dinner...he know that what was happen with me....seriously...take care of me alot...appreciate....then i out for movie around 6...i reach AMK around 630...so we watch Almost Famous....一炮而红but...actually the movie so so only...not really that good...kind of boring also..anyway...after the movie...we go dinner at the foodcourt on the top floor...so...i eat a bak kut teh and a chk cutlet...and we just talk bout what happen and talk cock...

after dinner we take bus home....and i just turn on my psp and play for a while...then sleep...coz tomorrow working 7...so have to sleep early.....

28th Nov 2011

was sleep quite late yesterday....and i wake up around 815 then sleep in till 9...damn it....quickly bath and pack things for tonight volleyball...then rush for work...lucky im not late for work...if not sure kena people eyesight one....

so today is weekday....is a quiet day....not busy at all...and today is the day that i get my half month pay for just a 6 dollar per hour....is totally not enough for me...but have to just take it first coz they said if they want back pay me its going to be very hard...so...ya...no idea...but i take first...well...i need the money for clear all my bills and insurance and also room rent.but...i can sure that this month also will be damn jia lark....is over again...sigh...when can i get things right....i have no idea...totally no idea....

so after finish work...change to sport apparel and then rush to CCAB...take the wrong bus...then have to go back all the way...but lucky still can reach in time to have the first game.So after the game...tommy fetch me back...so...reach home...bath and then just play my psp...then u call me around 12 plus...said u still in work...and it was at PS today....so..i decide to meet you later....so i change my shirt...prepare for a while then i go take cab and go PS....

so when i reach there...i just walk around and look for a drink....then i head to the cathay and have a cup of ice shaken passion tea...my favorite drinks. is been long time i never have that...so is time to treat myself a cup of that ..... haha..anyway...i wait for almost 1 hour plus then u just come out from the PS and then we just take cab home....seriously...i hate to wait people...but is you so is fine...

when we reach yew tee...we quickly go find some food and eat coz u said u very hungry...so we eat Yi mian at the food court on the second floor...after finish...we just head home and bath and sleep....nothing much can do....well..ya...

27th Nov 2011

Then today i wake up around 840....suppose wake up around 730 to have a breakfast with you but then i keep sleep in and u keep hugging me....so i just keep turning off my alarm and sleep again till 840....but i really need to wake up and go mrt take train to orchard then change bus to the bus stop that near my place....but then actually i just dont want to wake up and keep sleep beside you...hugging you...kissing you....but then cannot....rrushing for work....so after i left....i head to mrt and take train to orchard...coz i need to go canele and pass a message to mickey that i have a cake order.

so when i reach there....when hazel saw me...she just running all the way from kitchen to outside and hug me....ya...coz we been quite some time never saw each other already....i miss to work with them actually...coz they are my great part timer when i was still in canele...ya...the time when i still working in canele....is very fun and enjoy....anyway...i pass a message to mickey then ask sam to write a wording for the cake....and stay there for while to chit chat with hui ying then go for work d...if not ill be late again....

so by the time i reach toby is around 1055 already...so i never late today...but....is very busy....busy till around 5 oclock....i dont even have time to stone....just keep running and running.....yet....the weather is so hot somemore....so...finally...the so call 'happy' hour is over...so we start to clean up...and knock off...but...seems like someone said want to have some alcohol...then terence said there have two bottle of champange in side the cupboard...so christine go get one of that and we have a small drink in work place with just me terence christine and charlene....so after that we just went home around 8....

after i reach tpy...i meet kennedy for dinner but then he only accompany me becoz he already taken his dinner...so..i just have a 4 dollar yi mian..then one ching teng...and the one chin chao jelly....then i just can really feel the fullness....then we just talk cock there....around 1030...we just head home....and ya...i was thought that my charger left at your home...but then when i reach home and i search my bag.....is inside so no need to go ur place and stay today....so..i just turn it on my laptop...and do my thing...

26th Nov 2011

wake up late today...i means slightly late....

well....something happen yesterday....so we didnt have much conversation...so when we reach mrt we just go different way coz im sure i will be late if i take the mrt toward to jurong...but then end up im late also...coz when i reach bus stop the bus has just left the place....sian.anyway....reach work place...and get slam by the crowd.....we didnt have much message for the day....i dont know...and im the one who giving the message everytime....sigh...

well...after the work i drop a call to you and you said u heading to the birthday party that you dont really want to go....heard from you that u dont even know a single person there....and the birthday boy is the one that u dont like....and the party at MBS somemore...by the mean time im heading to SPAN to play volleyball.

lucky i go today...so that i can saw marc at the court...he straight lar...but then i like those type of guy....after the game....me and kennedy suppose to meet stanley for dinner but then they are planning to go L4D....sigh....boring.so after accompany joel and kennedy to Mrt then i going back by bus....reach home and pack.....and prepare to go ur place....

so by the time i reach mrt u still on the way to city hall mrt only....so i was keep waiting for you at tpy till u message me meet u at city hall instead then i board on the way to marina bay.....but then suddenly u call me...when i reach dhouby ghout...coz the last train toward jurong is on the way to dhouby ghout...lucky u tell me to come out quickly...if not i guess i will be stuck in city...

so after i change train toward jurong...u approach to me with ur friend name phi phi....is a malay....can see that he an AJ also...coz...the attitude,...anyway....u we're just talking to phi while im playing game...coz we got no common topic that i can talk with....so i just carry my bag...and stand all the way from DG to yew tee....my leg was damn tired....and becoz just finish volleyball...so...is more pain....

so when we reach yew tee...first thing we do is find a place to eat ....coz we are staving....u tell me that ur watching an ang mo using a chopstick to eat mix vege rice without let him know how stupid it is..lol...bully....anyway...after we eat we just head home and bath again...sigh....then i just lay on ur bed and try to type my blog but then u are just beside me...so is kind of hard to type...so i just not doing it and turn it off and sleep....

you hold my hand and sleep again....but im also want to hug you to sleep as well....ya....and i tell you that...dont cry infront of me next time...coz i dont like...the reason is i will cry together....

Love

Ain't love should treat it more loyalty

Ain't love should be more concentrate with it

Ain't love have to be respect for it

Ain't love have to be more precious on it

Those are the thing that when you have a partner

But what if everything was wrong

And everything is just started to breakdown

It won't feel comfort anymore

It won't feel secure anymore

It won't feel perfect anymore

It won't feel the love anymore

I believe that

We have to treat it nicely and take care of it

But it take two hand to clap
Ya...clap

25th Nov 2011

Today wake up around 940 then quickly go bath and change and prepare for work....today bit late also...coz by the time i reach the bus should be alight that time...but then is delay for 10 minute....sigh...so byt the time i reach clark quay is around 1055....at least a 10 minute walk then i just can reach..

so....work as usual....work as stewarding also...coz my pinoy havent come back from batam yet...so is kind of tired for doing washing those stuff...but then still have to coz there is no one to do anymore....

so....today have the lunch as usual...bacon+crossaint+scramble....and....my tummy is really get big...scary leh....have to really go work out...and slim down.....then i end work around....7...after i message u said i want to go your place and overnight....then suddenly kennedy call me said want to meet me.then when im on phone with kennedy...he saw u just around clark quay center....but then u are with your friend together....

so after i end call...then i left the work place and head to yellow jellow for a while to meet mei lian...and know from her that Gabriel message u for like...think he saw us going for dinner or some where.....then he said he very disappointed....i was like....what does he really want sometime....seriously....anyway...then i get a small glass of beer from her and after drink then just make a move to meet Kennedy at centrel...

so we go eat the fish ball noodle that located around his work place...yet...he show me where is "one seven"...the sauna room....anyway....after we finish...then we walk all the way to marina square to pay a visit to stanley and go fix my earpiece....but they want to to go to it factory...but is very far...so...no choice..then after that we go pay a visit to stanley for the new outlet opening...the chef tony popcorn...

but well...he is at the office....so is only xavier is around...so...after that...we just head back to TPY together around 1030....then i go home and bath...and pack everything....then make a move to MRT to meet you....but then when i saw you....you are on Grindr....and show me the guy that who message u in the grindr....i was so fed up and piss off....seriously....was very piss off...then on train..u are getting mad also....please.i think im the one who should be very mad about it....becoz of you i delete the grindr in the phone...and concentrate for this relationship....so....shall i really just pretend that was nothing happen...i cant....so when i reach ur place....i was just turn on the laptop and do my thing....just want to pretend nothing happen now....

24th Nov 2011

today a bit late for work coz im sleep in again!!!!

i hate that...but then i cant control....late for bout 15minute....lucky they never scold me for that...coz i think is not im the only one who late for work....so ya....

today is a bit unlucky that both of the pinoy going to batam for two day....due to some issue....so...ill be the stewarding for the whole day....i hate stewarding....seriously.....
but then actually is kind of ok to be coz i can eat whatever i like inside the kitchen....well...but not too over lar....like bread is fine....or some egg.....muffin.....haha...

so....is a bit unfair that all the thing i have to do alone...but then now i understand the feeling of being a stewarding and dish washer....is very lonely....and no one will really like it....

clean the floor....mop the floor...top up....washing...seriously dont like...but no choice...coz only left terence and me to be the one whon closing for today....

so everything i bao gak liao.so ya....is raining again....still have to chain up those chair and table outside....make me wet becoz of the rain....i hate rainy day....so...after my work...im heading to dhouby ghout for meeting Kennedy coz afternoon he message me to meet him for dinner....
so before i reach PlazaSing..,..i call you to fin out where are you...but then u telling me u going home...so i was assume u are....but then when i reach PS...u tell me that you are around there which is in the rilakuma shop...

sigh....so....end up you join me and kennedy for dinner....and....he really think that u are very irritating then me...same to mei lian....sigh....but anyway...they are okay with it...so...after the dinner kennedy plan to going back to copy the key for his home....so we head back to toa payoh together and...u go home after u went to the gents...

so ya...after we done the copy and shopping...we went to LKP in mcdonald...talk cock....byio guys....is been for quite while we never did that...coz both of them are quite busy on their work...so no choice...so...around 1030 we just go back home....so when i reach i just bath and turn on the laptop and do nothing...really dont know want to do what...so just turn on.....

23th Nov 2011

u said that you going to wake up early today....but then both of us keep sleep in....so...end up we wake up around 730....and u need to reach work place which is around clark quay...so we out together.take to jurong east....those train are pack like sardine...seriously...lots of people early in the morning....cant even get a sit.
anyway....around 830plus we reach clarke quay....u suppose to meet one of ur friend but then she still at jurong so....we go have some burger king breakfast...then i just slowly walk from centrel to my work place.work as usual.......nothing much special....
so i end work around 630 today but then hang around inside the outlet for while coz Terence show me the quest crew performance....so...we left work place around 7 plus...and know a lot of thing that happen in joe and dough before when he still working there....and ya...is a rainy day....we had about at least 30 minute chat then we just said bye to each other....then i go home by 143...well is a direct bus...so...i just board on it and play my game in my phone...
so when i reach home...just bath and turn on the laptop and do the email thing for Xiao Fong....then check all the mail and facebook....
then....around 1030plus....me and my roomate go have supper together...well....he know me very well that i dont have enough money to use so he just pretend said he want go supper and then ask me have money not...then he just lend me a 20 dollar...coz he know that i really run out of credit....ya...so we went to lor 7 and have supper together....
eat chicken cutlet...then head home and continue my mail thing and then sleep around 3....

22th Nov 2011

so....i really wake up around 820....then i drop you a call but then u never pick up...then i make another call again around 840....ya...and u pick up the phone and said ya..i was sober...so u just hang off.....then i continue sleep...but then i was planning to go suntanning....so....i wake up around 9....then pack everything and head to bishan swimming pool and tanning....

The sun light was super good....just for an hour..i can see the different...thats what i call suntanning....have a good weather.......good timing....and good place...relax.

but then is really one hour...after that the rainy cloud is coming on the way,....is not today only...its been few week...like early in the morning till afternoon can be very sunny...then suddenly afternoon it change to a rainy day....but nevermind...as long as i can tan thats fine...then i head home around 11 plus...

then when i reach my area...i going to have my breakfast...my favorite fish ball mee bok. im the regular for there also...when aunty saw me then she will just said is it the same thing?! then i just said ya....coz she already know what i having....so i have my usual drink also....Milo Ais.

After finish...i just head back home and online...work on my itune music...coz is just a mess...seriously mess...so you was telling me that you are working today....at centre point orchard...so i was planning after i done everything i just change a shirt and go out and look for you....but then when im on the way bus stop...mei lian message me and said want to meet me...so i was out for meeting mei lian then i head to takashimaya....and meet Edmund at Pique Nique...

nothing much change...still the same...we have a conversation for at least one hour...then i just go and meet mei lian.....

after that..both of us heading to orchard centre to buy my gong cha for him then we head to centre point and look for you....then take mei lian also...u keep bitch her loh...but lucky she can take it...coz she use to me already...so u are just a bit more irritated than me..so she totally fine...

after that we just head to antoinette and have some light food...too bad cannot have a discount....

then after that we head to paragon look for Eric but then he is not around...so after that we just walk around and shopping....coz i will meet you around 730...

mei lian want to meet Cat....so i just put a reservation at antoinette again but different places...is around lavender....coz the production is there....so becoz of the stupid sound system...u finish around...8....and by the time we reach there is already 830 plus....my reservation time is 830...

anyway....we have our dinner at there....it was nice....but too jer lark...

and...i found u a good partner that can really joke with...mei lian...well...is a fun dinner lar....u keep irritate those waiter and waitress by just telling them the different language of thanks you...lol...anyway....we end the dinner around 10 plus...so i was planning to go to your place and overnight since u said u will be going to clark quay for the event...so...i decide to go back and pack everything out and head to your place....

by the time we reach ur place is already around 1230...after i bath...and rest...is already around 130...not much time left to sleep anymore....so i just rest a while more..then we just sleep....seriously...both of us is damn tired already...i only know i sleep quite fast...thats all...

21th Nov 2011

So i was wake up around 8 plus....then go brush up and change and prepare for work...well...by the mean time u still sleep like a pig....before i go..i just kiss you then go off......rush all the way to orchard and change bus to my work place....
work as usual....not so busy....then till i finish work....i rush all the way to CCAB for my usual volleyball game. is a 2 hours game...so i wasnt that enough for me....not even feel the tiredness.....

So after the game...tommy my volleyball friend fetch me home...coz he also stay nearby....then on the way he keep talking bout those volleyball thing to me.....i was like...hmm...urhh....ya.......

well...i really dont know can give what reaction anymore...anyway...when i reach home...i just go take a bath...and finally....my roommate is back from his recover....he get burn by hot water when he was at work last two month ago.....so now his leg is getting better....so after i bath...he and the owner son accompany me to go and eat supper at lor 7.
actually there not much food can eat....but we just pay a visit to the fruit store aunty....coz we are the regular...so...after that we head to lor 5 and eat the 伊面...is super nice...i like very much...and i have two bowl of ching teng....
after that we just head home and i just lay on the bed,....then suddenly fall asleep....till around 2 plus...then suddenly wake up....i saw ur message said call u tomorrow around 830am....so i just set an alarm and then fall sleep again....
in just like not more than 30second....=.=

Diary...

well....im using my blog as part of my diary now..
so....
ya.....

Is....

All....

About....

DIARY!!!!!!!

20th Nov 2011

Continue on what i write on my diary book...

So suddenly u said why you here?! Then ur sis said why never buy gong cha for her also...then u blame me for not call u when i reach...i was like...ok....then i put down my bag and pretend i want go eat and buy the gong cha for your sis...then ur mom want us to buy cigarette for them also...so u accompany me go out and buy those...

So on the way there i was keep telling you that i just want to give u surprise...buy ur favorite 奶盖冬瓜茶then take ur favorite pastry pain au choc for you also.....but then never expect u give me such reaction....anyway....after i buy the gong cha...then i keep teasing u ....but then who know u get angry.....

Then...after buy the cigarette and gong cha...we go to the food court there and have the dinner...all along the way u dont even want to talk to me....then i was keep apologize...but then u said apologize for what....?i was kind of fed up lar....so u just order ur soup and eat...and i have my qing teng....then u said why u dont buy something to eat and eat something that cant even make u full...then i was like....seriously fed up...then i go buy the food and eat...seriously...we dont even have a single words while we eating....
So....after that...we just walk home....i was walk infront of u...then i dont know why u walk so slow....then when i turn around...i dont even saw u,...then i was going back and look for you...then suddenly when i turn around again...u was infront of me already....dont even turn ur head back and look for me....sigh...
Till i walk to escalator there...i just saw u sitting down there...and wait for me....reach home...and u just pretend there was nothing happen...then i just sitting down at the living room...playing my phone....and suddenly u just join in and sitting down there and use ur leg touch my stomach...i just ignore....u just try to be good with me again....but...end up you win....
i just cant ignore...im just the way too soft....then after i go bath....i was lying on the bed and continue play my game....and u come in after u bath....then keep talking to me...and said dont be like that lar....haha....all along i was just teasing you....u keep hug me....just try to said apologize with using that way i think...so after that...we just fall asleep like that....

Well

Well
is really getting lot and lot more people who can really who are we
im very happy to saw those video clip in youtube or those link out from my friend
is a new generation
is a new life
everything is so good to know
i am the one who admit myself as a gay here
yet i already does show in my Facebook once
so what?
i am who i am
and i dont bring any problem for you
we live like no different from other
we are proud to be like that
we love when we find our love

work stress

well....i guess everyone have that as well...
it just different cases....
for me.....i always cant really work with someone that i think they cant even work...
ya true.....and it cause my manager headache for this....
is not that i dont want to change....
i give an excuse on this......
becoz of my age.....alright....age....
if my ex-manager heard that he going to kill me again but so bad he is not my manager now...
i really miss him so much.....
he teach me a lot of thing that when i first come to singapore....
service....skill....anything that really can learn from him is great...
other people might dont think like that but for me he is.
now im struggling at work...
shall i really keep working on it.....ot i shall just change an environment....
when i hate someone....i need quite some time to get ripe of it...
is not easy for me.....i know this well....'
although i want to change but still....i quite stubborn.
sigh.....i was so hope i was someone else.....

Is.....

Is getting hard to keep on going
when there is really no one that can help you work out the problem that you have
what i want is just a little encourage by someone that really appreciate what i did
i do everything becoz i take it so serious
is part of my job
is part of my responsibility
why cant take it serious while u know what to do
im getting tired
im getting lazy
im getting
ANGRY
i was consider shall i really go point out the thing that u dont even know what to do?
shall i really go and said what u really weak on?
i dont think i got that strength to tell you anything anymore
i was so lazy
but
i give my thx to my fren which is one of my supplier
he give me advice to continue and see how it goes
he give me the reason why i have to wait and see the situation
and
i was so regret that
why i quit
Canele
i miss all my colleague and the time at there
i miss my regular there
i miss the shift there
i miss the paper work there
i miss the
................coffee art there.....................
i was so

BUSTED

Im back...

well....
is been quite some time i never update my blog....
actually i do have lots of things want to post on.....
but i was just too lazy....ive been quite some time never open my laptop to update my facebook also....
all the game inside never get update also....
since when.........
after i go taiwan....
haha.....
well.....
really feel so tired for the new job now...
miscommunication with my colleague and staff....
jobs sucks for moment being....
yet....i really dont like people who dont appreciate those thing that we did for them....
very tired.....

Bastard!!

I was so damn bastard...

i fall in love with someone that i cant fall in love with...

was really suffering when i saw him...

i just don know why...

just start from last two year,everytime i saw him i will stick to him so close.

i cant said like a brother,coz we really are some bother ( relationship )

for me he was damn nice to communicate...a nice person to date with...

but so bad he got girls friends.

Was really controlling myself everytime when i meet him.

few day ago he come to my home and look for my us to have a drink...

really enjoy the moment when i go out and buy something with him....

and when we attend the same wedding dinner...just sit infront of me...

i know!! is weird....but no worry...i controlling myself...

sigh.....bless....i always like a person that i cant fall in love with....if not it going to have a big problem....like world destruction?haha.....sigh.....

A marriage...

Few days ago...i attend my cousin wedding.

It was so fun...when i saw lots of brother is celebrating with them.

What was inside my mind in that moment...

I dont even know i can have a marriage like this or not...

Is complicated...

I hope when the day that i have my own marriage...

I will invite lots of my brother and friends come my wedding dinner...

Singapore....my hometown....my friends that i know...

It is really fun...you can play with them in the wedding dinner...

Sing song,drink drunk drank~take picture,cry together...

Giving Blessing by them...Cry infront of them....

Finally become a real guy that have a family....

I just dont know why i like it lots...but so bad...i know it will never ever happen in my life...

Was really complicated....

Choosing a way that never return is pain...but was a fate...

wondering...

Actually was wondering....when can i really have a proper boyfriend.

This is a question that i keep asking myself.

If i get it so sudden will i really go and keep it for long?

My friends has been telling me that keep on dating but dont have more closer relation if it was just started.

But the problem is i dont really dare to go and date someone that i want...

What i scare for? Got no idea on that.

My friend scold me that i always think too much....

It haven start but your mind already start to think lots of junk.

Those couple that i date before or their date me before....It cant even last long for few month...

Maybe i just haven get ready on it?

Been trying to go club and looking for it but...so bad i dont dare to try...

Coz i know it is just for fun...those people inside the club wasnt treat you in true heart.

When their saw your face...only thing that pop out inside their mind is...This guy is "FUCKABLE"

Thats true.all people inside the club wasnt treat you in true...their just need some one to fuck.

But if lucky enough...you really can get one...

I like sun tanning....know why?

First i like the color...second i like myself to get more attract...coz i saw lots of boy with nice tan color.Third...i like tan guys as well...dont you feel a bit more tan will be more great?

somehow...i already done tanning for twice...but i dont think is enough for me...still a long way to go...

Was really wondering...what those boy like...and what am i inside their eyes.....