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Was really don't know what im doing right now...

Was it really a pure love...or really just a critical crush...

it has been one and half month...

ive been trying so hard to forget everything in this two month...

everything seems so right after the first month...

im happy...im working...im marathon-ing...im volleyball-ing...

but why...but why when i saw him i still cant forget him...

his smile...his joke...his words....his action...his anger...

the most unforgettable thing is...he so sweet and nice...

i recall every moment that we been together...

is an extremely short time that we been together...

but is just the way too sweet for me...

he is really are the perfect one for me...

he is the one who make me so happy when i can date with the right guy...

he is the one who i can really give my heart away....

he is the one who make me feel like so protected...

he is also....the only one....i cry for....

i never cry for anyone...anyone except those who treat me good and nice...

"we barely know each other"

this is the word that come out from his heart...

i agree what he said....i agree...although my heart was not...

he told me to move on...he told me to take time and recover...

time....recover...

do you think a broken heart can really use the time as a thing that can recover the crack?

no....

do you think a broken heart can use other love to cover the crack?

no...

DO YOU THINK A BROKEN HEART!!!CAN RECOVER SO EASILY??!!

NO!YOU TOTALLY WRONG!!

.......u been hurt me once....this pain...i remember...

but im not hate you at all...im not....

i know...as long as u are still alive....i still have a small chance to be with you again....

although the chance is less than 1 percent....

but now....

everything change...

you choose someone that...is more good than me...

more nice...more good...more...perfect than me....

when i was in the game...im keep searching you....

searching for your shadow...but....

what i get is....u already have it...the one that really can suit u well...

you right...my friends...

i shouldnt appear in court so early...

"time can recover everything..."

i dont give a damn on what time can recover everything...

i believe in escape the truth..the reality...will be more effective than time...

but i didnt....i was facing the reality now...

my heart is pain....

my heart is bleeding....

where are you...why when i need you to be my side...

Let me cry on your shoulder...

Let me hug you and talk to you....

Let me play ur ear and look at your eyes...

Let me just sleep beside you...

Just let me..........................................going back to the time that we been together.....can i....?

i had enough of lonely....

you are really the one who light me up....guild my way to a pure love....

i was....................................trying to cry for sometime....

but....i cant...........................................................................................................................i want to cry....

New

Since last time i post something on facebook said...i like him...no matter what i wont change.you can go on ahead to be friend with me still...or you want anti me also can..i wont bother...i am who i am still.

I was very happy when i receive some comment from my friends...although is just 3...but it make me so happy...one of my dear said no matter how it is i will still be your best friends Love ya!!one said very good!be the one who u are and not fear about anything! the last one i forget what she said already...

It was few week ago...since i post the last post....i was getting well and well...

Just last week i when to the meet up for volleyball i saw him...before i saw him i was inside the changing room...while im changing my Iphone was accidentally drop on floor and crack!

But when i look at it i didnt feel any sadness...what im thinking that time is...o...crack already...go and change the screen should be fine...

but when i finish changing...i walk inside the court i saw him...I dont know why my mood suddenly get bad...and when i look at him i feel like i wanna cry...

I never talk to him that day...although got chance i also don want talk to him...

I try to avoid him...i dont know why...i scare when i talk to him again i will cry again....

It was so scary....i try to avoid to play court with him...digging with him...just everything...i try not to do and said anything to him.

But he still that sweet and nice for me...his smile...his eyes....everything is so nice...but is no longer for me...

After the game...im on my way home...suddenly i receive a message from him...he said am i ok?im look so angry.I look at the message and thinking...why dont u ask when im still at the court...

You dont even treat me as a friends do u?u dont even want to open ur mouth to talk to me....after few message...it ends up like the same as before...he never reply my message...this is the part i hate the most....why dont u just try to said something to end up the conversation?

After that i told one of my friend that know everything about me and him,...he was telling me that...he already move on so do u....try looking for another relationship...or maybe just stop think about those thing.he already said he don want to accept another relationship yet so just deal with that.

Yes...since that day i told my friends how im feel...i was more better than 3 weeks ago...

Yet...im already start a new relationship....i think im kindda happy with him now...although it just few day only...but im fine with it.

I try not to think to much to let myself worry.i know i can do better than before....as long as he think im ok to have a relationship....hehe

Heart

Everytime...i try to forget him...but is kinda hard...is not that i dont want to forget...it was just hard to forget... Everytime i finish my thing,on my work,after my game...i hope my phone will have a message that is from him...how was the game...did u take your lunch...have you sleep well...sleep early tomorrow u work morning... But those thing will never come true again...and there got no chance to happen again...after the night...everything change...he seal all his emotion...he dont want to open the door again...he was afraid... I cant find anymore happyness on him...the smile on his face is the most sweet things i want to look for it...but is gone...the feeling of relax and comfortable after he bath...is still make me so comfortable...but is gone...the ear and the hair that i playing while i lay on him...is so soft...but is all gone from now... I try to tell myself to go and accept the truth...yes...i did...but cant last longer...today i might forget...but tomorrow i will remember again... ive been talking to him...he said he is fine..he worry about me...but what he said...he make me more worry about him...i was the one...that make him feel so sad,down and depress again...i know that...although he said he already said what is inside his mind...but i didnt feel any of it...he still inside his closet...lock it up...he said he just tired... maybe im too lousy,irritated...im want to look for him often...but i cant do anything already...a lot of people tell me that time will recover everything...but it will take a long time... ive been telling him that...if u want to know each other more...u have to tell me was is inside you mind...i do give it a try to change...i am who i am...i change bcoz of u but i am who i am still...why i said i change...because i want you to know...you are the one who i love with now...i do changers because of you...no one else can have the chance but is only you... im telling myself...you are still on my list...the number one that on my list...i wont change anything until i know that it was really no chance to have u anymore...then i give up... the way that u wake back home after u send me...is was far from ur home...i cant believe that everytime u look for me u need to walk a far distance with a leg that injure....i really dont know until i go and try now... i really hope that u are still in love with me...but this is what hope now...ive been somewhere to play...but...my heart juat cant accept anymore people except you...it was still hard for me...to forget you... Friends...is what we can use now...are you feeling sad now?are you cold now?are you hungry now?are you okay now?i hope i really can be there for you now...but i cant even do that now... you been said before...if you dont like a person...u will need sometime to talk to him again...it might take a week,a month,or maybe a year... what i really hope now is you are getting well...cheer up again...smile again.........talk to me again....i really cant forget the moment that u do a poker face to me...it was so funny...u are really stupid....the most stupid guy....i ever fall in love before... i will be waiting...the day u message me again...although is simple...but thats enough for me...is more than enough than anyone else.... i was in the place that we use to meet the first time...you will telling me why not finish the food...why....because...i was too nervous while im beside you...thats why i cant even finish a single thing that i use to eat everyday....i didnt tell you that on the first day...because i already does fall in love...with you...is not a crush...it was true.... okay...ill be fine after this...im having a break now...

Work

ok....it seems like is only someone will know what im talking in this post...so...try to get it ok.

I resign becoz of something that happen will that thing is already cannot be save...

And i joining back now to that place....

Is really a good place to work and it becoz i going C to work i know a lot people...

I know how the bread and pastry work,the chocolate,the cake,the drink.

The most important still is Friends!

is really happy while im start working at there since april...

it has been 6 month ago....

everything change so fast and goes so fast.....

after i know them...their are like gone one by one...

it becoz of the working shift,but not the friends over there....

im still ok coz we still can have a meet once a while but...

since He come....everything get change more than before....

He try to bring his own concept and working style to C....

But somehow i don really think is a good idea to do that but no one can really stop or give advice to him it becoz He is the OM....

No choice but just have to accept what was really happen now....

no matter what thing he do,what thing he said,anything he try to explain...

for other people their might think good or bad...

but for me is TOTALLY SUCKS YARK AND BULLSHIT!

He just like an assassin that like to play back stab....

Somehow the GOD is quite like the way he work so we are like really got no idea what to said so just let it be....

Last few day...P has left C....it might be good for the staff.....coz the way he treat the staff is really bad....but becoz of him just for this C....

My Cater M ....has just transfer to some where else....he no more longer Event M....

im kindda upset about this....no more event for me and my partner.....the great partner for Catering.....

everything is changing.....i don even know how long im going to survive at here...

some of my friends said why i care so much u are nothing but just a staff...

but their really don know how im feel about it....

i don like it becoz just a people then the whole world is changing.....WITHOUT ANY REASON!

you can said im too much of gossip about those thing that really not that necessary to worry bout.

but i just cant stand here waiting.....it make me more hard to work....

Im waiting for an answer...can i really turn back the time......

U can take my body away....but you cant take my soul away....

no matter what i wont become a part of ur crew.....

thats no way i will follow u and work with u...

i get in touch with a lot of M but u are really the most suck in this....

THX YOU!

My Unknown Friend

I remember when i was still a kids...my friends always buy those weekly magazine for comic.

And at the back of those magazine always have those people who left they contact number and a small message said " wanna know me?please message this number i will chat with you" "i just want to know more friends.please contact me or message me.."

This kind of message...and that time is i just get my first phone that i can use to call and message.

Im kidda happy.Then suddenly i saw one notes but i already forget what was that and i message "him" right away...

"He"quite funny,but what i can remember is just a small part of it...i cant even remember all of them.

it has been few year ago already....no choice...

After few day i message "him", i found out that it was a very good friends to chat with...

Then i don know what question i ask him...then he message me..."you think im a boy?"

That time when i receive a message like that i was...SHOCK...

I was wordless....but after i know this girl....we chat a lot more than before.

She is gorgeous and she had a boyfriends which is the face kidda old and slim,but she introduce him to me.

Not bad right this girl.Her name Zhong Bei

She are the first and last friends that i can know through phone without saw each other for the half year.
And i keep message her when i was too free...

She will call me xiao gui and i will call her aunty...Coz she just one or two years old older than me.

Is really fun that time...no matter small thing or big thing she will also tell me about it.

Like last time she break up with her BF she make me nervous about this...

But after all they be together again....and now she at KL for study....

She from sarawak...but it seems like now although i message her but i didnt receive anything form her...

i wonder what was happen to her...but her bf tell me that she doing great...

but also never get back to me when i tell him to call her message me....

kidda sad....

But is fine...i know she will message me some other day...just wait...

I wont give up on who i meet and be friends with them.

Gods & Demons

Actually how well do you know about Gods & Demons?

Ok...i believe that quite a lot of people believe Gods is stand at the good side,and Demon will stand at the other side which means is bad or evil side right?

Last year,two of my volleyball friends try to open my mind and give me all the knowledge of the Jesus which means part of the Gods.

But it seems like im not very interest on this so after two month i give up,of coz one of the person already sense that im not really interest on it.

Got one day...is before she realize im not interest.She ask some question but i forget what it is....

What i know is...she keep said Demon is a very bad thing that come and disturb and ruins everything,eat heart,drag people to their trap and give bad luck to all the people.

But...the answer i give her is...i dont think Demon is evil.She so shock when i said this...she just answer me back and said you really have no idea that what Demon doing is all the wrong thing!

What im thinking is like...is really that bad?

You see...is not that i dont believe in Gods,but Demon also doing their things.

If Gods are the creator...then must have someone to go and destroy.

Of coz the destroy part goes to Demon,then the world can just get balance nicely!

Gods is doing their own thing which is like give life,bless people,create some sort of like that...

Demons is doing their job too,like destroy,give virus,curse some sort like that...

So their are doing their own job as well...

If the Demon play the part of the Gods...then what Gods going to do?

What im thinking is like....you can said it bullshit,you can said im the son of Demon...

But what im said is true...you never meet them you never know...

Demon might be the who do the judgement to those guilty people.

So...If really one day i got a chance to meet both of them...

I really want to find it out.

The truth of Gods & Demons.

Brokeback Moutain

It was a very nice movie.

the first time i watch is around 15 years old i think.

then i keep looking for this movie since last time i just borrow from my friends sis.

Bet someone never heard of this,but please....it is great.

although not everyone will go and watch a love story between two boy,but...

i think there goes no problem with this.

"Love is a Force of Nature"

It was true that you cant stop when you meet someone you love in your life.

no matter who he/she is.

You found the feeling,you get into it,you got it.

im so proud of them,Jack Twist and Ennis Del Mar which are inside this story.

The best part is when their saw each other their hugs,kiss.

Of cause the ending sad.

Jack Twist get kill by three person.

When Ennis go his house to drop a blessing,he found out that a shirt that he throw to the brokeback moutain was just a side of Jack Twist wardrobe.

A jacket Of Jack Twist cover the shirt of Ennis,which means he will protect him always and always...

In the end of the story,Ennis turn back the shirt,which means Ennis shirt is outside to protect the jacket from Jack.

And he said " Jack...I swear......"

This the point of sadness...

A best movie should go and watch it...

Love

im hunger for love...but im not capapble for love.

this is the word that come out from one of my friends.

maybe yes,is true that someone in this world is just like that.

but somehow some will just think that you just havent meet your love yet.

but what if we already do?

so thats why we said like that?

to be honest...yes i did my first love in here.

for 18 years i never been fall in love before.

but this 19s is a bit different.

in previous blog i got mention about my first love.

but is just maintain for two months.

but this love is so lovely.

it feel warm,smooth,nice.

somehow,something that we just cant control.

things can be happen so suddenly.

just one of my friends chat with me said her BF going to go dubai soon coz the exam didnt pass this time again.

what she told me is...if he going to be there,i will follow him to there and work as well,no matter how hard it is,coz i got my way to survive.

ok,i admit that this is a very great love~~BUT

what im thinking was like miss~~i rather you stay where you are now more than follow him to go,it goes nice and smooth in first month,but it will get worst and worst in the following month.

one thing that cant maintain it like when its new and fresh for forever~

is true that someone said,a long distance love will be more great than see each other everyday.

of coz this kind of thing doesnt work on both of my sister.

anyway,i said just do your own decision,i cant bother anything.

because this is none of my business,i can give suggestion and opinion of mine,but the decision is still on yourself~

i really hate when someone told me how lovely him/hers with his/her,just get out of my way pls~~im not a goddess of love~~

it just a stupid love for me~~

but when you get into it....i can said omg.im sucks~

Tear

Remember that i was watching "King Kong" with both of my sis and my mom,and when the movie come to the ending part,is kindda sad somehow...then when i turn around my head...the eyes of my sis is rolling with tears.Of cause the first reaction for me is like "What are you crying for?!" then...i get busted.My sis is just using the missing aurora art name "Deadly Eyesight" to first blood me.Im dead and silence.

Got another time is the farewell party for one of my colleague that now don know at which part of Europe or Hong Kong or somewhere around this world.The farewell party is not at fine dinning restaurant so is not high class enough,so we going a food court name "Newton" to do the farewell.

Actually everything goes very smooth until i thought it wont have any "Bad Ending" when the party come to the end....But who know that a hug from her to him...bring out a crying scene that those movie or drama always have....she start the tear...follow by him...then both of them...

Arhhhh....what a good scene that i dont like it most and of cause i walk away.But dont know why end up im taking a same cab with him.In the cab,he keep sob until theres no more napkin on his hand to wipe out all the tear on his face...

But at the time im still having a cold-war with him which i should make an apologize to him but i didnt make it,and when i reach home i should give him a hug but i also didnt make it as well....im busted again.So...it ends up like this.But of cause we are still friends now cause i got said sorry after he take apart to Hong Kong for study.

Is it too late?Dont know....I know....i know....you can said im a cold blood animal or emo-less living things but i just not that sensibility as their are....

But i just realize one thing...i cant get strike by once...because...after all im not as strong as i thought.Somehow im not as cool and chill as i am when i meet this kind of situations.Maybe is part of the heredity from my sis but not 100%,i cant stand a person that who are crying.Although how happy i am at that moment,i will get affected,and i think this problem is getting serious.

Few day ago,when i watch an anime call "Bee Letter",the main character is a small boy that if got a tiny little small sad thing he also can cry out loud until the whole face is tear(you know japanese anime always do like that).Yup...i get affected,but just a little bit sad...A LITTLE BIT ONLY.

....Alright,so finally i make clear of it.Cry doesnt means you are weak,but it was just a little part of your life that you can or might have it so suddenly,and somehow i think cry is just a part of the release.No matter what situation like sad,happy,missing someone,angry and lots,you also can cry...And please....Cry as loud as you can when you can cry...release all the unhappy thing from you...and you will get better...when cry...remember one thing is more than enough...Be strong after the cry.haha

Honest...part 2

actually....to be honest that...

im hunger for love but im not capable for love.

in my very previous blog i already had one of this.

i make some mistake and it make me lost one of my friends....

i just try to be honest that i love....

but....after all it come to and end.

and it make me feel down and sad for the whole month....

i really don means to but i just cant control myself to being like this.

ok....just maybe for other people that not my type.

i know their are very hard to understand the feeling that love by someone that is not normal.

and their are scare about that feeling also.

as one of my friend said....i don might you are....but....just don fall in love thats fine.

i understand what his means....

i understand.....but don know why i just cant control myself.

An honest will drag everything come to an end.

You don't means that but it is means to him.

something i think....

i really need a psychology doctor to get rid of my sickness.

a disease that cant be cure and cant be heal.

a critical childhood life,change my whole entire status and my way to a proper relationship.

sometime when i think back is really stupid..

but what can i do....is already over and over...

it cannot turn back the time and i don change anything now.

some of my friends that know im different their give me advice and opinion.

tell me to give a chance to move back to the way that belong to you...

but what i can said is....im very appreciate that they all told me that.

but my mind don let me change for it....

inside my brain...there's a part name...honest.

im already no longer can have a girlfriends.

and...if i really do...i will tell them that i am a person that cant be share.

i just don want to be that dishonest to them....

but it change everything....

there's no way to change who i am now....

im quite happy with that.but in the other way....i feel sad about that..

but somehow i wont do suicide this kind of stupid thing.

i bet you know the feeling that being lonely...

sometime the feeling it just like...

the whole entire world has abandon you.

and you want to find a person that you really can have a deep hug.

an ear that can absorb every painful memory that you have.

a shoulder that you really can lay on and cry on it...

but the one that im looking for....is just a part of my dream.

i been dreaming this since i come here.

i been trying to push myself that will fall in love with a girl...

somehow i wont success..

what can i say?

Poem???

The Lunar Light will purify the pain of love...
A drop from Yggdrasil will cure the wound of love...
A tear from Phoenix will revive a dying love....
A kiss...will recover the fragile heart of love.....

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我爱你，你却不懂。但每次我注视着你，那种感觉却在脑海里徘徊。我不会跟你表白也没有勇气跟你说明，因为我知道你可能是属于他的。你不懂，无所谓，让我一个人旁边默默地喜欢你，注视着你就好了。因为。。。这样才不会失去一朋友。我。。。喜欢你。

看到你了，但手却抓不着你。想到你了，但你却在我梦里出现。了望你的时候，多么希望你会看过来，对我一笑。。。哪怕只是那短短的一秒，都经已让我满足。。。

明知道没有可能得到你的心的我，却每天都在想着你。明知道没有可能牵到你的手的我，却每天跟在你左右。有人会说我死缠难打，别人不了解无所谓，因为我只想让你知道，其实有个人每天都在。。。关心你这就够了。。。

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have to said sry to felix first.

coz i din blog in english...coz....

it is really hard to translate to english....although can....is very simple english

我爱你，你却不懂。但每次我注视着你，那种感觉却在脑海里徘徊。我不会跟你表白也没有勇气跟你说明，因为我知道你可能是属于他的。你不懂，无所谓，让我一个人旁边默默地喜欢你，注视着你就好了。因为。。。这样才不会失去一朋友。我。。。喜欢你。

看到你了，但手却抓不着你。想到你了，但你却在我梦里出现。了望你的时候，多么希望你会看过来，对我一笑。。。哪怕只是那短短的一秒，都经已让我满足。。。

明知道没有可能得到你的心的我，却每天都在想着你。明知道没有可能牵到你的手的我，却每天跟在你左右。有人会说我死缠难打，别人不了解无所谓，因为我只想让你知道，其实有个人每天都在。。。关心你这就够了。。。

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当跟喜欢的人在一起的时候，就算不出声，不说话，都会很开心。

寂寞的眼神，逃不了喜欢的人的眼睛。

但，双方对忘时。。。却是很幸福的。

对望的时间所剩无几，所拥有的东西要慢慢的离开自己的视线。

寂寞的孤单并非一言一语所能表达。

只能远远的了望一却无法抓住的幸福离开，散去。。。

男人的负担不是所有女人可承担。

女人的情感不是所有男人可忍受。

离去的身影无法带走回忆与过去，消失的爱情无法抹去悲伤与曾经拥有。
那道伤痕只能用眼泪遮盖。。。却无法用爱情来修复。。。

Lonely

Im so lonely....

thats all.

what can i said about this.

i think theres no love in my life.

and im not suitable for love also.

somethings wrong.

Lonely is more pain than Sad.

Hang out

Do you still remember when is the last time you hang out with your primary or secondary school mates?

But most probably we will must hang out with secondary school mates.Why?

I don't know and i really don't get it.

Maybe it just a two different category of age?Or maybe we just haven't grow up yet?

And did you realize that,the contact number in your handphone or maybe phone book mostly didn't contain any of your primary school mates number.Although it have,but just a few one.

For my own,the person that i still contact with is just two to three,what i means is primary.For secondary i have a lot but all is different group.

But when i really want to hang out with someone or maybe supper with someone at night,there's only one group that i will go with or invite to go.

I remember last time when i ask my sis that why she got a lot of friends in her facebook and why every time she also can hang out with a lot of friends.

And i'm quite jealous about that.Weird right?

But what she said is the best part.She said:"No matter how many friends you have,there's only one group that you can always hang out with them.Although you have a lot of friends,but it doesn't means that everyone will hang out with you.You must know that."

After she said that,my mind suddenly get clear.

And it is true that,although you really have a hundred or thousand of friends,but there's only one or two group that you can really hang out with.

So....

"Friends you can get easily,but true friends is not that easier."

"While the time you jealous about your friends.Actually your true friends already stand beside you...It just that you didn't realize that only."

What are you waiting for?

Go hang out with your friends now~

Fireflies

Actually this title is come from one album.

The album is from a band name Owl City.

This song is really damn great,i know this when i saw my friends in my facebook using his album picture.

But that time i din really go and check what song is this.

After that,when i go Youtube to see the MV,i found out that alot of comment about this song is like,what a gay song,the most gay song i heard and blar blar blar.

I really don get it why they said like that,but of cause they comment without any evil intention.

The very first time i listen to this song is really great,smooth,nice,is a bit similar to fairy tale song.

Is a very good recommend from me.You should get to know this song.

Ok...Since i blar a lot of nonsense,time to talk the point.

I bet everyone know that Fireflies wont live long.

They give all the best for this world to use the skill they have to enjoy the life.

Although they know that sooner or later their will be gone from this world,but their never feel regret.

Yet,they will enjoy till the candle of the life fade away.

Ok...

This is your life...so...Be shine,be happy.Enjoy every moments that we still can.

Because you wont never ever know what was happen in the next moments.

It might be sad,exciting,happy,down...but is all a part of the life.

Enjoy everyday,enjoy every moments.

Live without regret,That what we call Life~!!!

My Volleyball

Today i when to play my favorite sports Volleyball.

This is the group that i join for almost one year.

When i think back,it quite stupid while in the first scene.

When i arrive in Singapore,my uncle already set me a place for work.

And since is inside the botanic garden,so i need to walk for 15 minute to get in.

The way that i walk in for one year is a field with the running spot.

And their have two court there that already set up a net.

So i know that there sure have a volleyball game everyday.

Then i remember when i had my first off day,i remember the court that i saw.

I think....if im lucky then there will have a game for tonight.

So...i am lucky.And that day is the first day that i meet with this group.

Im so happy,Exciting...something that cant explain so suddenly.

"It doesn't matter how terrible your skill are..."

"As long as you don't mind how people think about you...."

"Someday you will have a wing just like them..."

Now....i think i might have a wing just like them...

Of cause,not as good as their are,but i still can improve.

As long as i don give up,i believe one day i will....

Felix

I hate you.

I really hate you.

You ask me why?

I tell you.

Listen carefully.

Because you the one who tell me to continue to write blog.

And,you are the only one that read my blog.

But...Hate is just a part to start a Love.

Don worry,and don get wrong.

My love for you is...

Friends!!!!

You are damn cool!!!

Give you one japan sentence.

Tomodachi!!!!

Photographer

Photographer.....

i really want to be a photographer,but of coz im not those people that need to be famous.

i buy a DSLR becoz i want to capture all the picture that i like and the most important is...

i don want to miss a perfect moment while it appear just in front of me.

actually when i brought this DSLR i told myself that i will bring it everyday.

but after i purchase it for two month,i start put it at home and never bring out with me.

since last week when i go to my second catering,i start to bring my DSLR with me everyday.

now is inside my bag and i think i wont remove it from my bag.

although is heavy but for me i think is worth it.

because....

"If you miss the chance,you still can get it back in the next moment."

"But...once you miss the scene,it will never be appear again."

"Catch the chance before you lost it,hold it tight before you lose it."

Good word for those photographer har.....

wordless.

actually i don know wat to write u know.

since last time the blog i update....thats all for me.

i don know why my whole brain kena stuck or else.

before that i still can think some word that quite nice one.

but now not even one word is pop out in my brain.

weird right?

don know wat was happen.

maybe im just too old already.

not as young as those ppl outside.

anyway i just want to translate some word to my friend.here goes~

They thirst for love when they are break.

They need more love when they in love.

Guys hopes Girls will feel the love that they giving them.

Girls hopes Guys will give some more love to them.

The reason for Girls that break up = She don feel anymore love from him.

The reason for Girls that break up = He cant give anymore love for her.

arent that true...this is the word that i think by myself.

空虚

每当夜晚来临我的空虚感就会越强。

有时就没有，但有时却很空虚。

可能是我更本就找不到人来爱吧。。

无能为力的我，胆小的我。

想要去表达，但我错过了机会。

我到后来才发现我喜欢他。

等待，等待，还是等待。

我太迟钝啦。

我真的很想找个人来谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情。

但，我怕我又再一次找错对象。

前三个就是一个很坏的例子。

一个一开始有，但毕竟他是一个超级大忙人。

所以最后还是我提出分手，因为，真的很难叻。

第二和第三，就是给他们骗了。

可怜的我，为什么我就是找不到我要的。

现在，出现了我要的。但我却没有去告诉他。

因为我怕他不是啊。我怕他会排斥我，拒绝我。

我喜欢他的身高，跟我差不多。

我喜欢他的体型，接受得了。

我喜欢他的样貌，不会差到哪里去。

我喜欢他的声音，很好听。

我喜欢他的头发，干净利落。

总而言之，他就是我要找的类型。

但很可惜的，哪有这么简单啊。

所以搞到我每一晚时不时都会觉得空虚。

惨啊。

shu ki da.

我又再次喜欢一个人了。

但，这个只是一个路过的人。

不知道他的名字，也不知道他住哪里。

更不知道他的资料。

但我却喜欢他了。

很想找他跟他说，但我却没有这样的一个机会。

可能是上天的安排吧。

毕竟命运是不能违抗的。

我错过了这一次，就很难有下一次。

但我也不可能任意妄为啊。

我也不懂他是不是，说了，可能我会更糟糕。

可能他也有了家庭，有了情人。

但，我无法抗拒我的心情啊。

我知道我又再一次的堕入了爱情的黄河里。

但，我只真的很希望他再一次出现。

让我有一个机会，说。

也希望他不要胡思乱想，因为。

我们这一类型的人很幸苦。

Im Sick......

我生病了。。。。

我真的生病了。。。

我的头脑很不清醒。。。

我没有勇气去谈一场恋爱。。。

我没有勇气去接受。。。

我连我喜欢谁都不懂。。。

我好想中了毒般，如果有人看我超过一秒我都会胡思乱想。

连我最亲的人也不例外。

我很想谈恋爱，但我很花心。

我不知怎的。很烦，很烦。

他是我一年才见一次的人，他对我来说很重要。

他给我的感觉是有一种很有安全感的人。

但我不可以做出一些对他不利的东西。

因为他是我的亲戚。

我喜欢他，但我也要保护我自己。

所以无论如何我都不会出手。

但我无法控制我自己。

我也不敢跟我的姐分享，毕竟这些东西不是很好看。

不想让这段文字。。。消失2

失恋的人渴望得到爱。

恋爱的人希望得到更多的爱。

男的希望女的感受到他的爱。

女的希望男的给她多一点爱。

女分手的理由=她感受不到任何的爱了。

男分手的理由=他再给不到任何的爱了。

三个女孩，过来！

很烦叻，不懂做么这么烦。

有好男人可以介绍吗？

很想谈恋爱叻，但又怕失去叻。

不敢爱，如何好？

给我一点意见吗。

毕竟我跟你们是两个世界的人。

怕我的三分钟热度。

怎样好？

为什么我没有他们酱帅。

为什么我没有他们酱壮。

没什么我没有他们酱成熟。

为什么我没有他们酱有钱。

为什么我没有他们酱有学历。

为什么我没有他们酱有型。

为什么我没有他们酱受欢迎。

为什么我没有他们酱高。

为什么我没有他们酱有男人风度。

为什么我的声音没有他们酱粗。

为什么我没有他们酱会宠女人。

为什么我没有他们笑到酱灿烂。

为什么我就是有酱多为什么。

可以来鼓励鼓励我吗？

好低落下的。

2010

很多人说新的一年新的开始。

是真的哦，没有错啦。

但，是不是什么都要新的？

哈哈哈，这个就要看自己了。

都是那个开场白啦，新的一年里，请多多指教。

有什么得罪的，请多多原谅，和包含。

给我全部朋友，

希望你们新的一年里，能做到你们想要做的东西。

身体健康啦，幸福快乐啦，笑口常开啦，什么都好啦。

就是要平安无事，健健康康的过一个新年。

不管2012会不会发生，最重要的是珍惜眼前的所有东西。

有机会的话就不要放手，不然就没有了。

本人的野心很大，所以做什么都不成功。

但我还是会努力啦，不会辜负你们的期盼。

所以，新的年就要.

Yorosiku Onegai Deshimasu.

Sinbaishuruna,wadashi hitori wa janai yo.

mina wa genki dane.Yakusoku ne?

hahaha...

希望我没写错啦。

新年快乐！！！！

给“我的朋友”

不要一开始就否定自己。

不要一开始就觉得没有结果。

这样你不就是没有机会吗？

明明可以试试看，但就是你自己否定自己，做什么也不可能啊。

爱情是无法去预测，对，但，你不去试试看你那里知道那是不可能的呢？？

失去是未来的事，结束是过去的事，拥有才是你现在最需要去想的事。

不要因为他，你勉强接受他。

不要因为他，做一些自己不喜欢的事。

人就是为了自己。

但。我想跟你说清楚，机会难得。

不要以为他今天在他明天也在。

不要因为今天不可以明天还有机会。

酱想的人是最蠢的人。

日文有一句。Ashida yaro Baka yaro。

意思大概是，明天才来做的人就是笨蛋。

这是你自己的舞台，灯光的补助是必然的，音响的效果是注定有的。

但，演奏的是你自己而已。

你的失败，你的成功，就看在你敢不敢站在这个舞台上演奏。

不要因为灯光的不充足和不完美的音响，而影响到你踏上这个舞台的机会。

演奏的开始，是让我们去调整我们自己的心情来应付这个演奏会。

演奏的过程，是让我们去懂得如何让观众得到他们所需的满足感。

演奏的成功，是让奏者跟观众得到前所未有的快乐和满足。

演奏的失败，是让奏者吸取经验以免下次有一样的错误。

希望你会明白。

就是因为有你的出现，才有他的出现。

我给的答案是。放手去博。尽管成绩是好是坏。都不重要。

只要你赶去尝试。。。。。。。。没什么是不可能的吧。对吗？